double happiness

can you figure out this tiny thing?

norwegian forest

期待過高，叫我好生失望。

picks

1.

有好些事情根本不是語言能夠充分形容的，所以綠常處於找不到適當用詞的情況，在溝通方面變得笨拙，卻不是表達能力出錯。就是了，我對此甚有同感。經歷過無法磨滅的事情後，那殘影，那脈絡，那官感，形成一種透明的狀態圍繞著自己，凝滯住了，一直開不了口。我一直覺得語言並不是甚麼可靠的東西，還不如一段前奏，還不如一個眼神。一直開不了口啊。

2.

親密的人離世。村上春樹說過，《挪威的森林》是要用來紀念他幾位已離逝的朋友。書中所有人都不同程度地被死亡的陰影籠罩著，綠因此而得了精神病，渡邊沒有衝動認識朋友。嗯。的確是會的，親密的人離自己而去，會扯去你的靈魂。

一切都沒有事，保持自然就好

《豕與自以為是的豬》系列第二及三期，購於中四(嘩，"若干年前"的意思喲......)。

我記得那時候我正處於「轉化」的階段，就是變得不喜歡自己的時候，因為遇上好些人和事，認清自身性格性情，覺得有許多可以改善的地方呢，例如脾氣大......不過又不知道怎樣改善，感到困惑。我應該是認同自己「自以為是」才買下這系列的，呵呵，而豬嘜漫畫也好得意啊。

**可是「天性」是好難改的，有基因決定的吧，有好多"好/壞特點"依然存在。無法否認，我和兩位哥哥有好多相似的地方，都是遺傳自阿爸的。



正如那豬僧侶所說，這本書是關於自己、心、對事物的看法的書，不是佛書，然而道理上有好多借鑑之處。我覺得這書最有用的地方亦如第二格說到的，有許多理所當然的事都容易看漏，藉著它的小故事而再次看清楚、意識到「啊原來只不過是這種問題而已吧！」。

可是，中四時我那有心機看，也不太有深刻感受。直至前陣子我第四度拿來看，不得了啊，簡直是當頭捧喝。話說我因為一些人事問題而存在執著，不太開心，然後便看到有一篇說，「那是看你如何看那件事啊」、「每個人看事物都有太多的偏見」。是！的確如此！這些道理我並非第一天才懂，我之前已非常明白這些道理啊，可我就是一時之間太執著而將之拋諸腦後。嗯，我幹嗎要不高興呢，我太針對那人了，而那不過是我想像中建構的那個他而已，我有可能誤會了他。嗯，有了偏見以後確實是「一沉百踩」，不斷往深淵裡鑽，把自己弄得更不開心。

然後往後的日子我過得很快樂。可惜
太遲了啊!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
我已做了一個重大決定......
Y_Y ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~



這是其中非常喜歡的篇章。
最美麗的地方，最想到達的地方，根本是只存在於心中。美麗的景色即使多美，沒放在心就不覺得怎樣。
唯有心之所安。



如圖。
不要害怕所謂的孤獨，不要以為自己是「一個人」。
沒辦法的，所有人都想別人喜歡自己吧。

雪 kar

這本書簡直是MUJI的代言人吧？
書名叫《雪》，就用上全白的封套，真如一片皚皚白雪；白色的浮凸字體，有如在雪地上留下痕跡。
粵北書城收穫之二。單是用來收藏已經好棒。



我也曾經想用這種方法創作封面。我記得導師那時問我：「那該怎樣製作？」UM.......那時還是手作仔的年代，沒有經費。的確，如果手作有可能刻到這種浮凸效果嗎？



買這書還有另一個原因，看看。總得要看一些甚麼諾貝爾的得獎作啊......雖然還未看過《靈山》......

截至目前未開始看這書......

阿根廷婆婆

從沒有看過吉本芭娜娜的著作，買這本書全為了我愛煞的藝術家內良所畫的封面。說起來，他們二人是情侶關係啊......

書名改得特別，書介也寫得非常好，引用了女主角講述母親逝世一刻她的感受得著。

阿根延婆婆其實是一位以前在鎮上教探戈舞、外型像混血兒、住在神秘小屋的女人，經常濃妝艷抹，怪裡怪氣，是流傳著許多傳聞的那種人物。就是這位婆婆，將主角與父親重新拉近，到達生命另一個階段。

女主人公獨自迎接母親之死，自此之後得到無法形容的心靈震撼，將她從過往無聊平靜的生活中喚醒，彷彿得到一件禮物。作者沒有明言那是甚麼，而我覺得那是一份令人開竅的禮物，驀然驚醒，眼中多了一重透明的東西。雖然沒有經歷過，不過我大致上明白至親之死有多大影響。

故事方面有兩點最深刻。

一
"你知道為何人要在生前留下一些遺跡嗎？"
答：是想為自己作一點紀錄嗎？
"這也對。亦是為了讓深愛的人繼續活下去。"

二
女主角的父親是石頭雕刻家，在其妻死後，他彷彿領會了這個宇宙的合成和法則，造了個一層層結合的石雕，這東西叫曼陀羅。結構繁複的曼陀羅核心，是他心愛的人。

其實這故事並不太過吸引，不是很好看那種，嗯。
紙張好厚，一個晚上必定能看完。

Wah Mee Spiral Notes

這是文具店常見的記事簿而已，生產商應該叫Mah Wah。
這系列一共四色，有兩種揭頁方式，從上向後捲，或從右向左揭。對於從事記者/編輯行列的我來說，這樣子簡潔得體的記事簿正好大派用場，再加上記事簿耗用量高，這款便宜的記事簿是我的最佳選擇。

我非常喜歡它封面上所使用的字款font，紅黃藍綠四隻顏色亦夠basic。
除了無印良品外，我們還有許多好選擇。

夏雨la pluie d'ete

《夏雨》是在粵北書城的收獲之一，乃《情人》的原作者、來自法國的瑪格麗特．杜拉斯Marguerite Duras的著作。
購買原因是它古典式的包裝及簡潔的封面，與Oxford出版社推出類之書叢類同，我特別喜歡封面上的打字機字體。除此以外，我對作者及此作皆一無所知。



此短篇作只僅僅一百頁，花了兩天時間消化，老實說，我看不明白。看不明的原因反而最大原因是翻譯差勁的問題？要不然便是作者有意作意識流的寫作法，以致大部份篇幅都沒有上文下理，也經常出現莫名其妙的語句結構，內容更加是鬆散不堪。

這故事大致上講述住在法國小鎮的一個大家庭，兩夫婦生了一堆兒女，於赤貧的狀況下生活，其中涉及教育問題和宗教問題，我想主旨便是諷刺當地的教育制度吧。兩夫婦極有性格，妻子行事經常情緒化，會因為心情不佳而不做飯給年幼子女，甚至平常也不大理會他們的死活，即使幼子哭著拍門她也不會理會，是個懷出走念頭的浪漫主義女性。而主角是夫婦的長子。這男孩有著超越年紀的身段及智慧，因此他拒絕上學，又在不識字的情況下看得懂聖經，後來成了知名學者離家，並和妹妹亂倫。我想這故事還有一點宗教意味，我覺得作者沒有pro或anti的意思，而純粹想作出懷疑。



如果只是想收集包裝獨特的書，買這本是ok的。
對內容有一點期待的，我勸大家作罷，因為內容是超無厘頭的，例如兩夫婦拜會老師時，可以在對話中脫軌，老師一時會睡著，一時會唱歌；又或人物的說話開頭會出現「啦啦啊喇......」之類的無意思的感嘆詞，令人汗顏。

報告完畢。我得到了一本外表精美的書。

翻騰

Fountain

speak to me

BEST BOY NAME top 3:

Sebastian
Cliff
Julian

BEST GIRL NAME top 3:
Ava
Ellen
Jane

3 water color practises

painted by Nova Leung, 2003

there is still one work, but i gave it to my piano teacher.

潮撐

今天看廣州樂隊沼澤的網頁www.zhaoze.com
海亮說：

"......他做了人生一个很重要的抉择，前路如何，真是心里没底啊，而他仍然微笑着，充满了自信，这或许就是他最可贵的个性吧。"

他是指BFSH。

disappearing

OH! My Attitude

No, nothing but my best, not good enough for you

Cause nothing much is still too much to feel

Remember to forget, pretend you never knew

To beat the best and you don't leave a clue

No, nothing but the best was not enough for you

You wouldn't buy my pretty lie was true

But actting at the curtain fool is nothing new

Those little things that never leave a clue

If nothing but the best means nothing much to you

Don't count on me, just count me out, please, do

I'll never be your second best as others number two

One litlle thing that just won't let you choose

No, nothing but the best anda nothing less will do

It's more or less that loneliness I knew

But you, you had me marked initials black and blue

Those little things that never laid a clue

If nothing but the best means nothing much

Don't count on me, just count me out, please, do

I'll never be your second best as others number two

One litlle thing that just won't let you choose

One litlle thing that just won't let you choose

One litlle thing that just won't let you choose

所以，明白嗎？

如果都不是你的best，我寧願甚麼都不要

你要知道，我已經練習到很麻木無情的地步啊

malmo

in the 1st semester of year 1, i had taken a water color course at a piano centre.
had something / someone triggered me to take the course? cant remember.
but now i do think i had made a right choice, when it's a bit too hard to learn something in adulthood, right?

i can say, the tutor taught me with "poster color" though the course name is "water color elementary course".....anyway, the tutor who was from mainland was kind.

everytime he told me to choose a picture from books, after that i had to sketch with pencil, so the tutor would know what level i had reached and gave some advices. he would demonstrate me of how to mix up colors, how to create different effects..... well interesting! it's always magic when i had finished a pic! couldnt imagine how could it accomplish!

this is my last practice, as well as the worst among 4 works.
a silent night with invisible moon. no rippling. like some body is awaiting for some body.

until now i can remember how hard to "tick" the grass!!!
it took me 4 classes. (a funny phenomenon is that, i used 1 class to finish the 1st pic, 2 classes to finish the 2nd and then 3 classes to finish the 3rd.. . so far so forth. that's why i should quit not until i would have used 10 classes to finish the 10th one? haha)
er i think i most satisfied with the wooden bridge and its reflection in water?

i mixed the pic with some lyrics by "Starlet".

can you feel the atmosphere?
it's all i ever wanted
and it's written on my face
"i would surely die for you."

Elizabeth, transformer, $2

You are a sculture, Elizabeth.


I fly you to the 2D world.

I beg you carrying out transformation please, my queen.

You are now a $2 coin, Elizabeth.

(my drawing classwork in Year 3)

low b transformer rap

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0_T-RGXKGS8

=_=
they are smosh......
nice to meet them

MAC or PC?

5-star recommendation here again:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Jkrn6ecxthM

the feeling for me is ---- ok wor
the production is ok serious
the rapping is ok smooth
the rappers are ok funny esp. of their movements

yet

this video clip is ok "kai"
love that PC man ar!

jonathan arthur

lively!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aIT87On4ktU

i need some fine wine and you you need to be nicer

無聊大執著

我所認知的指甲包括了「粉紅色」(肉) 和「白色」(死去的部份？)這兩部份，應該是吧？
在我心中，若指甲的「粉紅色」所佔的部份越多越長就是漂亮的手。

可是因為天生的因素也好，後天的損壞也好，「粉紅色」部份被侵蝕了，而且是無法收復的，指甲看起來好短好笨。

這竟然成了我的煩惱......天啊，執著啥？！

尤其是我的右手食指，一個不留神「粉紅色」便被侵蝕了，可能是開飲料罐蓋掩的時候，也可能是剔除指甲邊沿的污垢的時候。




到現在我還是會特別地保護我的右手食指。

這樣子的執著實在無可救藥。

傢伙

我好像特別喜歡黃色「一粒」的東西
這些小傢伙


Mr. Happy



Mr. m&m in yellow (wong zai)



er....dunno its name tim........

FACE

My Recent Favourite Artist

木村貴宏
www.faceful.org

5-star recommendation :D

.........face.......

IM now working for "FACE magazine" too...
What time is it now?

SHIT
04:50am !!!!!!!!!!!
IM STILL IN OFFICE!!!!!!!!!!!!

LOVE.LY (2)

Hi this is my 2nd work contributed to the LOVE.LY exhibition.

its name is "transparent sigh".

i made a needle work over the bubble sheet, of which assembling my favourite art form and texture.

i have forgotten what's that kind of needling called, this is what the Home & Economic class taught me. (i had got fairly high marks in this subject gar, everything but COOKING!!! wahahahahaahha) I made a flower here with a heart-shaped pistil. Of course it looks more alike as a balloon. i always borrow the image of flowers. i think flower represents kindness and beauty, and love, and goodness.

however, the flower is made upon a bubble sheet. everytime when i push in and pull out the needle, it would pierce the bubble. " baba.....blablababababla ". this sound is 透明的嘆息. the goodness, the love, the happiness (the flower) are planted with 透明的嘆息.

what is 透明的嘆息?

"透明的嘆息 最後還是我的秘密"

種出美麗的花, 其實是 base on, 我沒有說出口的痛苦與付出與容忍

LOVE.LY (1)

Check this out!!
It's gathered over 200 works with the theme LOVE & TOUCH from different cities
Im also one of the exhibitors!

i have submitted 3 works.

The above pic shows one of those.

I have been inspired by the Color-Blind test.

I took a normal body check before. I found I was nervous at the moment though my sight is normal.

It's called "Love is Blind".

we Chinese would describe love as 色, there are 男色/ 女色, 色迷迷, 好色......

if ppl are in love, honestly speaking, the involved parties are all blind, color blind.

it's common to hear " oh he is blind!! why he would have chosen this ugly girl?????"

and, parents' love towards their kids are kind of color blind too. "oh my daughter is always pretty in my mind."

and i would like to express the feeling of "眾裡尋她/他".

er..... then i make it.

show the other 2 works later!

sandal wood soap

hi this is a piece of "sandal wood soap" with nice scent.

my mum recommended it to me. she likes putting soaps into drawers so that the clothes will be kept with sandal wood smell.

thus i put them into drawers too.

i particularly admire the flower print of the wrapping papper and the "golden paper zeal"! the packing is decent with standard QC.

it's made under the "BEE & FLOWER BRAND" in P.R.C., as most of the household goods do, which is made from our great motherhood. you may find it in most of the local variety stores (i guess? i saw it once in MK). surprise! a nice production from china!

i should say, dont buy it in G.O.D., coz i saw them in CWB store. it's not a high-class good rite? i dont agree they should be set in high price.

i have kept down all the paper zeals :)

my room

this is the curtain of course.


these are not stars.


this is not mine. dont smoke! smoking causes lung cancerand heart disease, the worst is the people around you would unintendedly breath in 2-nd hand smoke. smoking is one of the most foolish habit in mankind.

this is wong zai halloween special edition.

my gifts.

this is icecream sunday.

badges.

momo's gift.

this is a milk tea paper mug.

this is mavis.

this is adidas.

this is a jar of m&m.

this is the nutrition of my life.

flowers